**trigger maybe, for mention of CSA

For those who've been abused, do you ever fantasize or think about/wonder what it would be like to abuse others?

Do you think it is normal behavior? For example, for someone who was sexually abused as a child to think about abusing children?

Do you ever fantasize about being abused again in order to get the same attention you did at the time or to try and fight back harder to stop it?

I'm just wondering what you guys think - any other thoughts and feelings are welcome.