I started posting about feeling sad and depressed lately, but thought I'd better post in Relationships since it is about my closest friend. I will post there, but I just want to say that when someone I love is going through a rough time it affects me deeply. I feel as if I'm falling apart. I want so much for my friend to be ok, and feeling like himself again. I want to be there for him, and I am, but I have been taking how he is acting personally. How do I stop doing this? Why do I feel hurt if he seems distant? Shouldn't I be able to be stronger and just brush it off and wait until it all blows over? I know he is not upet with me (so he says) but why is it hurting so much? I wish I could just stop feeling this way. I wish I weren't so sensitive. I have been feeling so depressed that I am isolating myself more and more, and I've lost interest in doing things altogether. Just going to the store is a chore for me. It may have something to do with the fact that recently another long time friend hurt me/betrayed me and now I'm just afraid of being hurt again. I haven't been depressed in so long, and I don't know how to handle this. I have been keeping quiet about posting my personal issues, but it hurts too much and I have to let it out. I'm not taking anti-depressants, they have a very negative effect on me. My eating is not very good (I can't eat when I'm depressed) and all I want to do is sleep, although I keep waking up or else I'm up to all hours. How can I desensitize myself?

Sujin