Thanks everyone! Unfortunately something else has happened, not sure if it's related to this but I might really have to scour our city for a therapist now. Actually, I might do that anyway.

So, that thing about dragging my feet through the requirements? Yeah. My dad woke me up in the morning; he was angry, and disappointed, and his patience with me was wearing very thin, and he made that rather plain. A little later my sight blacked out. It came back after a few seconds, but that was... very unsettling.

Is that some sort of stress response or was it just due to being woken up quickly, something like that?

He should really know about me, feel very guilty for various things, but I haven't opened up to him or my mother at all.