I am caught up in the start of this problem. I know though that if I don't get help now though that will get out of control. I have talked to someone at the place where I see my T and they are going to work with my case worker to get me in a group that will help me get better. I am not going to let the love of my life slip away again. We broke up in February but we have been talking about getting back together but he has done said til I get clean again he will not take me back. He said if I don't get clean again he will walk away for good and I am not willing to let that happen. I texted him and told him I will do anything to prove to him that I am getting clean again even if that means talking random drug test until he feels he can trust me again. My mom for sure would kick me out she smokes pot but knows with me it doesn't stop with pot it goes into pill use. I am not willing to go back down that path. I kicked the addiction as a senior in high school and got around my sister's friends and felt pressure to smoke again. It was the dumdest thing I could do.