Blah... I'm sorry for posting again... I hope this one will sound a whole lot more sane then the last post... I feel so dead, alone, disturbed and altogether terrible... I have nothing left... I have so much to do and absolutely no energy... I have so much schoolwork... and it is so pointless... It's not like I will probably make it into college... I have absolutely no money... beyond that, I feel so distanced from God... My own religion just seems to say that I am going to hell... I hate my family, so much... they are just so dang annoying... I don't have any friends anymore... The only time anyone at school talks to me is if they want tech support for their iPads or laptops, or to tell me I should die... but I can't help them... and heck, I've never had a girlfriend and probably never will... I am completely alone... I really just want to die... What is left to hope for? I can never make it in this life... I just see that in my future. I have almost no money, the price of food is rising, my grades are failing... I wouldn't probably even be able to survive college if I went... And beyond that things will just get worse... I know it. They may call me delusional on this one, but I do know it. I'm sorry for bothering ya'll again, ya'll have better stuff to do.\