Sounds doubtful.

Perhaps it has to do with work? You're having these crying spells on the way to or from work. Many people hate work or at least find it stressful so, there is that.

Or you could just be like me and automatically jump to thinking about climbing that fence and having a zap every time you go by a place like that, I do. But, ever bridge and high building will do that, larger knives, bottles of pills, ropes, whatever. Even in a good mood the thought crops up for me, of course after thinking such things so often it doesn't bother me but, apparently a fleeting suicidal thought is disturbing enough to make some people cry?