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roads · Sep 05, 2012, 11:07 PM

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Originally Posted by brokenandalone1234

I was clean for 2 years and than just a week ago I went to my sister's and got back to smoking pot and drinking very heavly. I did this because I met a guy who introducted me back into that scene.

Well, brokenandalone ... I think you did it because you're an addict. If you're serious about getting down to a solution, you've got to be honest about the problem.

I am now facing a hard choice either get clean or lose the love of my life for good. I am scared of my family finding out though. They think I am still clean. I know with me though if I don't get off the pot than I will go back to pills and it will get worse from there. This is my question for those of you who have faced a drug problem how did you kick it and did your family ever know? I am more worried about my mom finding out and kicking me out of her house.

One of the first surprises awaiting me when I sobered up (the 1st time, at age 35), was that pretty much everyone who knew me also knew I'd been drinking to some extent for the previous twentysomething years. I'm sure there was no time that my blood alcohol level wasn't measurable, and for a great portion of the latter half ... possibly not legal. People know. We think they don't, because we are impaired--and our perception of others is impaired.

What worries you most: (1) that your mom may kick you out the house? (2) that your boyfriend may walk away without giving you another chance? or (3) that you may already be unable to stop on your own?

I sense from your posts, brokenandalone, that you know how much trouble you're in & that only #3 on this list is seriously scary & could kill you. Please, please use that common sense I see you have going for yourself. Put ALL your focus on building a support team--your T, case worker, this group you found. Get involved in AA if possible, & find a sponsor. Emptty asked about telling your family, & I'm all for that once you have your program in place & functioning. Odds are your mom knows. Maybe once you have a sponsor, ask her to an open AA meeting. Just a suggestion.

If you will pour everything into regaining control of your addictions, brokenandalone, then once you're sober again & not worried about losing it all ... then mom and boyfriend will be there or not. They would have done what they would have done anyway ... people do. Your begging them wouldn't have changed anything--just wasted time you needed to spend on you.

Roadie