as much as i don't want people to know, and am worried about what they would think, honestly, i think the real stopper is i'm just too afraid to actually go and initiate everything. i'm too scared to talk. trust me, i'd love it if i could feel how everyone else seems to feel, but the fear just keeps me away. it makes me nervous talking on her anonymously, let alone face to face with someone....i just keep telling myself just give it time....maybe it will get better once i'm done with school...if someone could go and talk for me...i'd be willing to sit there...but to do the talking myself...i don't realistically see that happening...

<font color=purple>"I dropped a tear in the ocean. The day you find it is the day I'll stop missing you." ~Anonymous</font color=purple>