I have actually found smoking to be very calming for me, and it seems to help with side effects and most especially evening me out when I am in a mixed place (like now). It was also helpful at times in slowing me down to focus with rendering me useless when spiralling upward/

Right now, I am dealing with disability apps and pt work apps, and do not know at what points I might need to do the testing- so I have been off a few months. I miss it.