Welcome back. Sorry to hear you are getting the divorce. I know how hard and frustrating it can be. Just completely exhausting. I just went through one myself. We are back together but still went through with the divorce because the year it took and everything we went through we figured if we ever split again we are never going through that again.
It will get better, the load will lift. Get on here and talk to some of us who understand and have been there. Some of us who already know you and your story. It could help. You dont have to go it all alone. You have friends here.