i am sorry for the position you are in atrester but it is very good that you are seeking alternatives.

it is possible that your meds need to be adjusted. is there a clinic you can go to? or at least speak with the doc that prescribed your meds and go from there?

many communities also offer therapists and doctors on a sliding scale based on your income. it may be something to explore to get the help you need without costing. I also know several people who have their therapy paid for by church programs, if that is an option for you to at least look into.

if you are unsuccessful in getting any professional treatment (and even if you are) you can look for free support groups in your area. There is no professional counseling at a peer support group but being with others who do understand can help. They may also be able to provide ideas for ways to get therapy that you can afford.

of course this forum is an online version of that type of peer to peer support group. I believe it is good to get out and be around actually people who can offer support, but this place also has advantages like being available 24 hours a day every day so you can ask advice, read about others, or just come and vent when you need to at any time. So I hope you will continue to visit here, it is a very good and supportive group of people.

finally with regard to your husband not "getting" it is he open to trying to understand more? there is lots of info on the web and a lot of good books on the subject. i wrote something to help friends and family understand depression as a start, if you think it will be helpful it is at
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