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Originally Posted by Scorpio08
Everyday for the last three years iv been suffering from PTSD n I seriously feel like my head is being bashed by ping pong balls everything is all over the place ppl I thought loved me betrayed me n abandoned me including my husband who I still resent. I have two daughters no family my mum is a controlling nasty piece of work who punishes me wen I dnt obey her I'm in therapy bt it hasn't really helped I'm so depressed everyday I was such a happy girl with so much to look forward to I threw my life away wen I got married slowly my husband gained control ova me n now I have no money no career can't even dress the way I want to can't spend coz husband gets stressed iv tried to leave my marriage bt husband won't let me uses the girls against me n iv got the mother in law from hell I'm not trying to get sympathy I'm just looking for some advice on how to change my life I feel so stuck???????
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Erm, I don't mean to be rude or disrespectful here by any means, because this is nothing but just a guess from the little information you provide but... it does sound like you're in a sort of an abusive enviroment, Scorpio. That concerns me a little bit because no matter what amount of therapy or good intentions you may have, with someone constantly "controlling" you, there's no real chance for you to get a real hold of your situation (PTSD and whatnot) and make a difference about it.
I am not sure the extent of this control or push you family members/husband have got going on on you, but psychological manipulation to verbal abuse is highly detrimental for anyone, specially for someone with a PTSD diagnose. It's like giving poison to someone who is already on bedrest, or something, may not kill you but it certainly won't help at all.
In my situation I could not stay, he was indeed going to kill me eventually, so I could not stay and desperation and adrenaline works out for the best when your survival skills kick in because I went through hell to get out of the abuse. I understand there are differences, you've got kids and I don't so I didn't care about being homeless when I was, the thing is that you should know in every scenario there are options for you.
For now, I hope you'd feel comfortable enough sharing with us as much as you'd like so we can support you as much as possible. Be safe
