for the past month it's been 2, 3, 4 hours sleep a night. Last night none at all. I'm declining in thought process obviously due to not sleeping.

I really really pretty stubbornly do not want to rely on sleep meds for a few reasons. for one they throw my mood even further. I have had rapid cycling from zopiclone and mixed moods flare up when using ativan. They really don't seem to work with me too well. Two, I become dependent on them very quickly, and then I really cannot sleep with out them. I spent a lot of time getting myself off them and back to being able to sleep with out them.

Yoga isn't helping, meditation isn't helping, melatonin makes me wired. I'm at a bit of a loss, and if I wasn't so tired I would probably be able to figure out more things to try. My brain is just kind of ......... at this point.

Any ideas I will really appreciate, I am getting old and I cannot function like this. If all else fails I will probably try sleeping pills, but I'd like to try other things first.

I have a dr's app in 2 hours, do I have to get dressed, have to take a bus there, can't figure out when I need to leave my house. Never mind remember why exactly I made this app at all. I remember I have sun damage on my shoulders that looks like solar keratoses. Fair to live in one of the coldest countries and worry about sun damage. But there were more things I can't think of at all. Better just work on getting dressed.

I stayed up all night researching antlers, this can't be great.