Petunia,

thank you. I know that Mary (my T) is taking all the steps she needs to, its just that im ever so persistant and i just wish i wasnt. Have you ever been driven to do something. Like its a force in you that pushes you along and carries you and no matter what you do, or how you fight it you keep saying and doing the same things. Im really stuck and she is really stuck with my stuckness. It feels like if i have to change i need to give up an intrinsict need I have and im not sure if i can do it. When a person wants something so bad, can they really give up on it and walk away. I cant imagine i would ever be able to get over the disappointment.