I think it would be great to be able to have a bit of time to myself to relax and get my thoughts together. But I don't really have anywhere to do that...I have a room at my moms house but its only a quiet place to relax if I am the only one here which does not occur most of the time. When things get too stressful here I go visit friends and family but then of course I then don't have my own space to relax and get my thoughts together.

Outside can be nice sometimes I guess but then there's the traffic, or in parks other people walking around or being noisy. Also I have tried just doing things i enjoy and distracting myself but the things that I enjoy or that would normally cheer me up some lately just depress me because I know I should be enjoying it but I feel no enjoyment so it makes it more pain than its worth.

In short the distractions aren't really distracting me and I have nowhere to really heal. That is part of why I am so frusterated because I feel like if I could just have some time to mellow out and get my thoughts together it would help some...I know the fact that i cant is exuasting me mentally and physically and the longer I go without a break from it so to speak the worse its going to effect me in the end. But what to do? I have no way to afford moving out...I have no income and no way of getting any unless I can get on SSI. So I agree those things would help it just seems that is out of my reach.