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Old Sep 06, 2012, 03:47 PM
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Originally Posted by landskaperdan View Post
It is really hard for someone who doesn't go through it to understand that there is a difference between having sui thoughts and actually developing a plan and intending to go through with it! I'm sorry that happened to you. I ALWAYS avoid talking about it because I don't trust anyone to understand that. I think about it a lot.. but it's not like I want to. I have two girls an an awesome wife and I will never leave them.... but the thoughts of sui are around all the time. I wish more people understood about it.
I understand, lands, I am completely terrified of sui. yet I had a plan and came dangerously close to using it when in a deep state of depression. I think the terrifying part for me is that even though I now do not have a plan and with meds I'm in a good place, I still think about it a lot.