I feel like I am still adjusting to being out of the hospital. For a while, I thought I was going to have to go back since the sui thoughts were back and pretty strong. I am going back to work on Monday, and I am extremely anxious about it. The anxiety leads to depression and sui thoughts. I am really nervous about facing my coworkers. None of them know why I was gone, so I am guessing they will be asking a lot of questions. I know if I can just get past the first day back, then I will be fine.