It actually makes more sense now that i think about it I kind of took it the wrong way, I take things personally quite a bit. I guess I got used to people being rather nasty to me mostly at school during no less, but my family isn't innocent in that area either. So I've kind of internalized everything so now I can even take helpful advice personally its frusterating for me because it seems to make some people assume I'm being stubborn or whatever and then they don't even want to bother trying to help...to be fair I realize I cant expect everyone to know what's going on with me and be able to react accordingly.

I'm just frusterated that I have all this crap to deal with and lack the ability to deal with it...I mean when I went to college I really thought finally things could start improving and I could move towards the life I want or whatever. But so far that couldn't be further from what actually happened...Now I'm just a useless 23 year old or at least that's what it feels like.