The closest thing my school has to a counselor is the principle... and we have been at a private war of words for three years now...
School is more than overwhelming... and it is more than the workload... I just feel so hopeless about school... And today that hopelessness gained substance as I listen to a former head of policy at the department of education say that they were horrified when they got the position and found out that the system is designed to prevent upward mobility in life... I already knew that beforehand though... What's the point... we are all doomed... everything was planned out... everything that happened to me... I have recently obtained a certain government file that shows that my abuse was deliberately done... I have 440 pages of government documents as evidence...\ and it is all from the department of education...
not only can I not afford college(my grandad lost my college savings in the stock market...) but it doesn't even matter... The work is getting crazier... but I can still handle it... it just conflicts with my personal projects that are of dire importance... I live on 6 hours of sleep each night... kind of... I go to bed at midnight-ish and get up at 6... I am at school from 7:30 - 3:15... then I get home research stuff and maybe do some homework... and normally leave the homework until the day it is due...