This is how it started out for me too "Snuggle". A very close person to me figured it out and I followed her advice and went for help. But due to his incompetence and my stubborness, it didn't help. He put me on meds that trashed my world. I got off and went on a destructive path of hurting people, my life, stupid manic descisions and ended up in isolation. Don't end up there.