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Originally Posted by Deathlyones
Blah... I'm sorry for posting again... I hope this one will sound a whole lot more sane then the last post... I feel so dead, alone, disturbed and altogether terrible... I have nothing left... I have so much to do and absolutely no energy... I have so much schoolwork... and it is so pointless... It's not like I will probably make it into college... I have absolutely no money... beyond that, I feel so distanced from God... My own religion just seems to say that I am going to hell... I hate my family, so much... they are just so dang annoying... I don't have any friends anymore... The only time anyone at school talks to me is if they want tech support for their iPads or laptops, or to tell me I should die... but I can't help them... and heck, I've never had a girlfriend and probably never will... I am completely alone... I really just want to die... What is left to hope for? I can never make it in this life... I just see that in my future. I have almost no money, the price of food is rising, my grades are failing... I wouldn't probably even be able to survive college if I went... And beyond that things will just get worse... I know it. They may call me delusional on this one, but I do know it. I'm sorry for bothering ya'll again, ya'll have better stuff to do.\
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You don't need to say sorry. We are here to support you. I know how you feel I am a college student and I sometimes have the feeling of how am I going to make it through college with Bipolar Disorder. I can tell you this though you can and will make it. I know how it feels to be bullied. I was badly bullied all through grade school from 1st grade up until I graduated high school I was bullied. Don't let those kids get to you though. The reason they bully you is because they are sad with their own sad pathic lives. They have nothing better to do than mess with someone who is different. Do you see a T if not I recommond going to see one that way you can open up about what is going on in school. It helped me get through high school. I am now studying to be a preschool teacher. If you ever want to talk feel free to PM me I am on almost every day. I will be glad to help you through this. Just remember this when you think of killing yourself suicide is a permant solution to a temporary problem. If you show those kids what they are doing doesn't bother you they will quit. Trust me I know it took me til my senior year of high school to figure it out though.I wish you the best of luck.
Kayla