Yes I was talking about the doctor. The meds in my families words, "I can see a change and it's good". But I was trapped; like a zombie. Good for them that I wasn't acting "strange", but bad for me cause I still felt the same, yet acted different on the outside. Trapped in my own hell is the best I can describe it. Your boyfriend my already be bias because of what he has seen, but has failed to take the steps or care to understand. Your really gonna have to be strong and do what you need to for yourself.