Clouds, I am so sorry you are so sad I wish I had words to make you feel better. I give you a lot of credit for hanging in there despite your depression and anxiety. Do you have a T that you can talk to?

as for trying to find someone. I know it isn't easy. If that guy did not treat you well then you are better off on your own. I know it can be very lonesome being on your own though. How about volunteering? and not all guys want outgoing girls..many are shy and are more comfortable with a gal who is more low-key. I think men would love to have a friend too, not just a girlfriend. (I don't think you not being able to drive will matter) I hope one day you will meet someone who likes you just the way you are.

Please keep us posted on how you are doing.