I relate to being afraid to go and talk to a counselor about how you feel, since I felt the same way about initiating therapy and needed to be pushed in order to make that first contact. Maybe asking your boyfriend to go with you the first time is a good idea. Sometimes it takes someone holding your hand (literally or figuratively) and making sure that you follow through. Once you get past making and showing up for that first appointment it gets easier.

You know? Besides being scared, the other thing that I needed before I could go to the counseling center and ask for help was I needed permission. Someone had to tell me to do it. There's only so much we can do from here, but please consider yourself pushed and given permission to get help so you can get better. Depression is an illness that needs to be treated. It isn't likely to go away on its own. If you had signs of some other illness that is thought of as physical rather than mental, you wouldn't hesitate to get it treated, right? Why should this be different?

<font color=orange>There is an easy answer to your problem that is neat, plausible, and wrong.

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