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recently ive been having flashback that make me suddenly cry and idk why, sometimes this flashback coming even when iam talking to people and all of sudden the tears glistened from my eyes and i feel incredibly sad and i need to loked away or pretending doing something else so no none noticed.. and i dont know why
i dont know its simply because lately i cry so easily or i just feel hurts tonight i cant stop crying, and now everyone seen me cries and wondering why, i lived in very small village we dont have much public transportation here, and since i cant drive a manual car or ride a bike the only way i could get out from this house if someone give me a ride
begging someone to help me its really big thing for me i dont want become a burden to anyone so whole my life iam trying my best to do everything i could so i dont need asking for help
but theres a few thing i really cant do it and have to swallow my pride and asked for help but its hurts a lot when u asked for help and people said that you are a burden
i really do hope i could drive, i could move my legs so i cant do everything like everyone else
i need to stop crying, i hate people seeing me cries because no one understand how i feel, people might think iam such a bratt just because i dont get what i wanted i cry like a kid, its not that its more than that, its hurt my pride because iam limited i cant even do simple things and became a burden to people
i dont know what iam talking about, i think i just need to vent because i feel hurts ..really really hurts
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