We've both been tested numerous times, and he used condoms with everyone.
I really wish it was as easy as 'not talking about it.' Even if we don't talk, it runs through my mind constantly. Everything reminds me of it. I can barely function. I feel like I've lost the person I loved.
Is there any way I can think about it that might not hurt so much? How can I make this OK?
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Originally Posted by Leed
My generation was the 60's where sex was rampant, and everyone did it and often! But even *I* think that he "over-did" things in that amount of time. Doesn't he realize there are diseases out there -- that even if he used protection, it's not always foolproof? I hope you got tested cause anyone who tells you they've had alot of partners is a time bomb. GEt tested!!! And do it soon!
If you're going to stay with this guy, don't talk about his past anymore. It's just not worth it. It's going to drive you insane.
Also, the withdrawing from the marijuana could be a factor in your emotions lately. It's hard to get off stuff that you're addicted to, and I applaud your admission and the fact that you're getting off the marijuana. You'll feel MUCH better and you'll think MUCH clearer!! Good for you!
I wish you the very best. Try not to obsess over this. It and HE isn't worth it. No one is. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee 
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