I don't get enough sleep, and there are times I get no sleep...and yes Insanity and Misery seem to go together. But sometimes I wonder what the cause of the misery is.....is it the insanity itself or societies inability to deal with the 'insane' that leads to the misery insanity can cause? Or is it both? It seems I either think too much or its difficult to think at all.

the following is more of a rant than anything so I do not expect anyone to know what to say to it:
And as I child I thought adulthood would be an opportunity to escape from the misery...and put it behind me but so far it's only gotten worse. People say to learn from your experiences....then they say 'it gets better' as if it always does well if my experiences reflect the contrary how am I supposed to rationalize that it gets better. Every time I think its getting better or at least that I myself am doing better dealing with it all....something comes along to send me into complete mental instability. But then I realize I wasn't actually coping better just suppressing it all again until I can't take it anymore and something even minor can set it all off.