(Mention of sui.)

For those of you who go to therapy, do you ever feel like you are paying your t to repeat what he/she said a few months ago?
My "up" conversation revolves around not quitting my meds, stopping the binge drinking, and quit playing with the benzos.
My "down" conversation (today's conversation) revolves around keeping a plan to change my thought patterns away from sui. Going back to keeping a mood chart, and promising to call if I get worse.
Around I go...it seems that the few hours/days I feel balanced is never a therapy day. I want my t to know that I do have regular thoughts. If only I could get a good night's sleep just once before I go, I could show that sometimes I have this bp thing is check!
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