I was diagnosed with depression when I was younger, and I have occasional bouts of it but its never been an issue to the point where I've been really concerned but lately-I've been really depressed I'm graduating high school very soon and I've come to realize that my financial situation is a mess and that I cannot afford the cost of the deposit for the college I am planning on attending in the fall. On top of this I feel as though as long as I can remember a feeling of always wanting to belong and be accepted by others. And I put up with so much crap or at least I think so-and I feel as though I let others walk all over me-especially my friends-some of them are younger than me and are very immature at times-and will be upset with me over something stupid and be over it the next minute. With someone as insecure as I am its hard to deal with these constant ups and downs -I need security in my life and I'm not sure when I am going to find that. Does anyone have any ideas that would help me cope better? because I keep what I really want to say to them inside and then all of a sudden I'll just flip out and completely lose it(in appropriate situations like @ school)-and that can't happen and when i try to talk to them they either get mad or brush it off so i'm not quite sure what to do....help if you can!