Oh my gosh. You totally nailed how I am. I didn't realize it was anxiety, i just figured it was me being impatient or a bleep...
Know you are not alone! I know that doesn't solve anything or help at all, really (I don't have advice since I have the same EXACT issue) but know that you aren't a loser! I hope that someone has some advice, though, because it is so hard!

Thank you for posting this.