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Originally Posted by Setso
This is a huge trigger for me. Ie; when I send someone a pm and they don't reply. Or in a game when I ask someone something and no reply...
I understand an tell myself that maybe they busy, or didn't see it or something...
But it still BOTHERS ME A LOT....every...single...time! And this is a HUGE trigger for me. To the point where I cry and scream out loud, and if it's a really bad day, I get suicidal even. I think it has to do with how I suffered a lot of rejection in my life, and have a weak self esteem sometimes, so when it triggers hard, I break down.
How to cope??
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yes this makes sense...
it's what I call..'emotional investment'
you perhaps?......have a social heart inside of you that beats more for others than for yourself.
yeah....a rejection thing for sure...and the world is packed to the sides with the rejected.
I do it too...it's vital to overcome for survival..it's more a borderline kinda' thing but it's pretty common for everybody to 'act out' but just not as much as us.
I don't have an identity structure....not an intact one anyway.
...alot of what I express....is an attempt to develop an identity....and I am careful where I let this personal energy go.
it may not return see!
it's like saying..."here is a piece of me...I thought long and hard about it...I am letting it go setting it free...."
if it don't come back to me....then "yes"....it is upsetting....it's gone ....
it might take me days weeks months to get that confidence back.
