...one may wonder it's ridiculous to consider this?
and one more might agree thats it's even harder than addiction!

why else would I have been continuously innebriated since April?
and I can write this easily after 17 beers

addiction is like a career.

and with a career...the entrepeneur must be dedicated...the thing with addiction?...it's self employment!

so all one needs to do is 'show up'....when the work is on when it's time to get into getting out of it! and there is always overtime available when I really want to get into getting out of it! (made it personal there...see that?)

THE CLEAN life?

this?....the addict gets fired from everytime...too much too do.!!

too damn much.

I would not be writing this if I did not believe that I have turned up at this dead end job for too long now....

what began as an extra curricular hobby has once again become a damaging joyride where no-one is smiling!

I am the boss and the only employee in this sad-land this empty room this vaccum this lifeless ungodly moon!

...now, no-one talks like this when they are moving...getting promoted at work...

I have put myself beyond 'light duties' in my own company....as the manager I must stand down