I can hear ya on frustration with it...

But the frustration is part of growing (Or At least I do believe)

I know some days I get frustrated and say to myself- why did I ever stop using?? Life would be less stressful...

But I Remind myself of the chaos of a lot of it -- the short break was just an illusion....

Also Reminding oneself--- I CAN make It threw this, and Then When You Do--- At least with me, it does feel like gaining something more... with in myself... which can mean a lot.



I know I have been having a little hard time here lately myself with a lot stress, but the thing is--- I think of gains..
Some times visual gains do help me-- for example-- material things lets say-- I remind myself what I have now-- I actually have a home like setting-(I actually have a dinner table wow!)- When i was doing hard drugs all I had was a bed and a few things...
If I am not so quick for instant graditude (like the visual and material things) i can look deep down in me and remember how I was back then, and how much I have changed, and that - well to be frank- I am not so callus as I used to be even if I may be from time to time now....

Keep moving forward Dubble

it can be a struggle, but it is a struggle worth fighting for