oh 'home'--- I just try to make one.. even if at times i don't feel fully I 'belong', even at times-- while at home, feel like -- where is home..

I remind myself-- Home is where I make it... what do I want in my home...

But that may not be waht you are talking about-- that goes back to a part of my PTSD, which the drug use did not help to heal those wounds....
In away the drug use, with 'unsure if i was staying', 'not really caring where i stayed', .. it did not help that and encouraged that thinking in away to be a lost person with out a home or belonging... Losing friends, making new friends, not trusting 'friends' due to observing them and being like geez wow, etc... eventually no friends...
All a product of both the dx and drug use.. the drug use (And Alcohol use) damaged some things..

BUT with continuing to Try... To Continue to stay Sober... it helps to build back up what I helped to crash and crumble down at one point again...



some times, it does not matter if you remember exactly where you got something-- but that you got it.. some how you have gained it... i can tend to forget at times where things come from and remember at a later time... but some times, all that matters is that it is there...