Does it ever feel like your mother never wanted you and had you out of obligation and loves you out of obligation? It's how it feels with my mother. I can't shake it either.
I keep hoping that I'm only imagining it and I'm seeing the glass as half empty but I really don't believe that's what it is.
The youngest of 5-the 4th girl, she wanted a boy-her husband, my bio father wanted a boy too and then he wanted her to abort me-she couldn't out of religious/guilt reasons.
Why would your mother tell you when you're a teenager that your father wanted you aborted? And they both were disappointed that I was a girl 'cause they wanted a boy?
Why?
And she wonders why I was so rebellious back then?
Am I making a mountain out of a molehill?