It's been a while since I posted anything. A lot of things have been going on. No matter how hard I try to focus on things getting better, something else happens to bring me back down. My job is not going so well. I have had customers yell at me for no reason at all. I've had co-workers yell at me for wanting to take a break. And today, I went to the pharmacy to pick up my prescription and all of a sudden I was feeling dizzy. Because of that, I had to call out sick to work 15 minutes before my shift because I didn't want to take the chance of passing out at work. And because of that, the assistant manager, which I talked to on the phone, basically yelled at me even though I offered to come in a couple hours later. Now I'm really scared that I'm going to lose my job now. I just don't know what to do anymore at this point. Part of me feels like that I need to quit my job because it really is becoming too much for me to handle right now. I have been at this job for nearly 10 years now off and on and I very rarely call in sick. In fact, other than missing a month of work back in February for health reasons, this is the first time that I called out sick in since January. Before my mental illness diagnosis of panic disorder, ptsd, and major depression, I have always gone into work whenever they called me. I'm really worried and scared that I'm going to out of a job for calling sick to work so close to the start of my shift. I'm trying not to focus so much on this, but I can't help it, it's constantly there in the back of my mind. :-(