Thanks for sharing that. Learning to be honest with ourselves is key to healing. When you stop denying, stop hidding from your own truths, that's the first step. Isn't that even the real first step in like AA and stuff? Admitting it?

In the very beginning you posted something that made me think you were an angry guy, but then after that you got really creative and humorous, so I just thought, maybe it had been a bad day. So, I didn't know you were angry so much. I guessed you were manic probably, and often depressed. But, not so much angry.

Drugs, alcohol, all of that I have no experience, except some cousins I never see, but I can only imagine the hardship it can add. I hope you find a path to help you stay away from all that. I know my one cousin who was always in serious trouble had to move over a thousand miles to finally get clean and stay that way. So, positive energy to you, I know it's not easy.