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Originally Posted by BlueInanna
Realizing and stopping it probably not so possible, so no wonder that idea is not connecting... eventually maybe possible. But right now, sounds like you're just coming to terms with the dx. not usually a fun or easy thing.
how do you usually cope with your mood, like do you know when you're manic, how do you usally express the extreme anger?
It will get better, you'll learn many ways to cope.  |
It's all so subtle except for my mania. I can't really differentiate between my manic episodes and my Borderline. I usually don't know exactly when I'm manic or when I'm depressed until after the fact. I have very little control over my emotions.
I have rapid speech, interrupt others, laugh at very inappropriate times, dye my hair, enroll in college, brim with optimistic speeches, verbally bombard my parents with every thought that goes through my head, become very impulsive and start HUGE undertakings and tasks, that I never finish or follow through with.
I sometimes get so angry that I verbally abuse those closet to me. I get so depressed that I stay in bed and only get out to pee. Everything ticks me off when I'm like that, every little sound or noise. I usually avoid anything unpleasant and shut down emotionally and mentally, not allowing myself to indulge in behaviors that I used to. I'm a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. I think I'm repressing myself and I'm not sure how to stop.