Try to hang in there ((((clouds_and_sun)))))))) it sounds like you are having a really hard time. Please don't listen to the stuff about never finding someone because you are not outgoing and can't drive, that is just not true. I hope the Social Security stuff works out very soon, it can be such a hassle to deal with the red tape involved with getting help but try not to get discouraged.
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