((((Hidesad)))) My family was the same way. Absolutely not allowed to show, speak or utter any form of what they considered "negative" or "unpleasant" in the feelings dept. My father would just look at me and not say anything at all. But my mother was the WORST. She used to tell me I was "ugly" when I cried, (I was usually crying because I was so frustrated)...and then she would tell me to go look at myself in the mirror (to prove her point).

I cannot bear to look at myself to this day when I am feeling anything less than OK or slightly above OK.

I am in my 40s too and this place (PC) has been invaluable for me. Along with a great T. I finally have hope again.

Please don't give up! Please continue posting and sharing.

If this old bag can do it (feel a little hopeful and optimistic) you definitely can do it!!

Hugs, Rose