I'm sorry you feel badly. my situtuation is differant but I can still really understand. My mother didn't want me either (she had me at age 13) One of her favorite sayings I was a mistake and I ruined her life I shouldve been an abortion too. it took me a long time to figure that those were her issues, But as a teenager I was very rebelious (also hurt.) but finially when I got phisically sick
and my mother rejected me again I will always want a mother but not one that will verbally and phisically abuse me. I try to be strong now I succuced most of the time.
I knew My father so did she, I loved Him very much and she hated him but he loved spending time with me ,he never hurt my feelings too. (I miss Him very much)
''Hugs'' Crista