I do have hobbies. They obviously aren't much help! I keep busy, but while I'm doing things I enjoy, or while I'm driving, that's when it gets a lot worse.

Also, I've started and stopped therapy twice with a psychologist. My mom will not take me to a psychiatrist because she doesn't want anyone to push medication on me. I have trouble talking to psychologists about my real issues. I normally spend time talking about my more minor troubles, and then my parents feel like they are wasting their money, so I stop. I did about 6 months when I was in middle school, and two months this past year. I haven't been in about three months. I liked the woman I talked to before, but I feel like the person I introduced to her and the person I really am are different, and I don't want to talk to her anymore. Also, I am really busy and have after school obligations three days a week, and also every weekend. My family sees therapy as something that is "extra". It just costs money and takes up time, and I really need to focus on my school work because my grades have been declining and I am already so busy.