feeling so low don't think I can get any lowr. just feeling all the emotions tangled together causing turmoil inside of me and I don't know how to handle it except taking the dreaded xanax and over doing it. I don't feel like anyone gets it and can help. no where to turn but the xanax at least then I will sleep and feel no pain, problem is I promised my T I would not abuse them any more and I would hate to break a promise but not sure thats a promise I can live up to tonight. Just need the pain to go away