Weird space today... Woke up after a terrible night of almost sleep. Jordan 'slept' next to me... Screaming, yelling at someone, kicking of the blanket, kicking me like her life depended on it, woke my mom and brother. So no, i didnt really sleep... Was kinda emo when I woke up, my brother out of the blue, offered to buy me a phone, said I've always been generous with him. I told him to use his money on himself cos everybody dissapoints me. I dont want to go to the party, but upset that I dont have company.