I am a third year college student and am finding myself overwhelmed by all the new obligations and expectations I find myself having to deal with. Growing up is hard enough, but now there are so many aspects of life I feel I never got around to before. I though I would just make a list of the things I really want in life and enjoy, in contrast to obligations that I am told I need to experience and do.

What I truly love right now:
-Studying hard.
yes actually. I was once a take it easy student who was fine by getting C's. Then on a trip to the east coast with my grandma we strolled by Harvard university, and hearing her say that I wasn't of this caliber and just could never meet this requirements... was one of the biggest wake-up calls of my life. Not because I want to go to harvard, but because I realized I wasn't taking myself seriously in life.

What I feel obligated to do:
-Get a girlfriend.
I very much so want a girlfriend and want all the companionship and emotion that comes with it, but the subject makes me feel very uncomfortable. Let's be realistic, unless you are a master pick-up artist, you can't just go out and come back with a girlfriend. I myself am incredibly shy and have great difficulty struggling with the concept of going up to people I don't know. Why I feel this subject makes me feel uncomfortable is because I feel like I'm on the clock. I have never had a girlfriend in my life, so I feel the more time goes by, the older I will have been without having ever experienced that. Also, college will only be for another year or so, and I do not want to go through college without having ever experienced love or something of the sort.
-Sex
I'm a virgin. No other way to say it. I understand I will be told there is nothing wrong with waiting, but again, I feel so pressured. Not just by my peers talking about sex, and feeling singled out, but by that personal clock of mine that is just reminding me how unpleasant it would seem to finish college and still be a virgin. I feel so pressured to have sex. I wish none of this pressure existed so I can be at peace with the fact that sex can wait, and that I don't have to feel pressured to find that special girl I like, and truly just enjoy myself at school. I wish I could feel this way. But fact is, I am only young for so long, and college will pass by before I know it. I don't want to end up being the guy who never took an opportunity for love in his life because he always thought he should just "wait".
-Job
Once again, for this subject, there is no other way to say it. I have been financially supported my entire life. Never had a job. It wasn't expected of me, in fact, my parents discouraged it. They thought it would take my time away from school. Full dedication to school was the reason for this. And for this reason, I feel very ashamed of myself. Not only because I am just recently trying hard in school, but because I just feel spoiled. All these kids around me work and have jobs. I am ashamed to say that I don't work and have never. I will sometimes say that I work for my dad over the summer, which is very true, but it's not an actual job. I just feel so ashamed for always being supported and basically having a credit card I can just use. Let me just say that I by no means just use the money I am given to buy whatever I want. No. I use it only for necessities. Food and school supplies. I just hate this spoiled rotten feeling I have every time I pull out my credit card at the super market, or walk by a group of homeless people with a bag of groceries or school supplies I just purchased.
-A calling
College is so much different than high school. In high school who just do what we are told. In college it is about what WE want to do. I am so new to this. I came into college with no aspirations whatsoever, while everyone else seemed to have their whole lives figured out. I really have no idea what I want to study or do with my life. This is going to sound horrible, but so far, NONE of these college majors interest me. I feel like just quitting college because maybe I have some sort of mental deficiency where I just can't become interested in anything, or make a choice.
-Music
This is a tough one. I love music, and it has always been my passion, but after I started college, I was hit by reality. Where would this ever take me? Would my dreams of being a famous musician ever come true? Do I even want to be well known? How far will playing in this band actually take me? What are you going to decide down the road? I can't help but feel sometimes that music is my calling and that is what I need to do, and to stop wasting my time in school, but truth is, studying and doing well in school is what I enjoy the most right now. I don't even want to be famous. That would suck. However this idea of never having reached my full potential or choosing the path I was meant to follow is killing me.

Very VERY confused in life right now