Hi Shiny,
I do identify with you.I felt like
that all my life until a couple of years ago.
What it is,is never being validated when we
were children.This can go so far as to feel
INVISIBLE,from not being recognized as
being there at all when a child.When I tried
to speak sometimes,I was told:"Shut your
f---ing mouth!" But there are many ways
to be invalidated that would result in not
feeling you have a RIGHT here. I would be
very hesitant going into stores that I thought would be upmarket (oh,that's for
the rich people not the likes of me),so much so I would be watched because they
thought I may be a shoplifter! It ALL stemmed from that feeling of being "LESS
THAN." I'm much better than I was as I
started to read up on SELF-ESTEEM and
ASSERTIVENESS which was an enormous
help.
So please look back into your child-
hood to see where you could have been
invalidated in ANY way. And here is a book that will re-educate you regarding
self-esteem:"THE SIX PILLARS OF SELF-
ESTEEM" by Nathaniel Branden.Do get it,
it helped change my life.
Respect+Kindness,
BLUEDOVE