Thank you Fuzzybear, Pat, and Christina! I had to take a day to re-center myself, and put things into perspective. I have let my friend know that I am there for him, and I have left it at that. I don't feel very safe posting in Relationships about the whole situation, it feels like I'm exposing myself too much, and besides you three, I don't feel like anyone would care or even reply.

I can't say the depression is over completely, I just have accepted that I can't change someone else's reactions, I can only change my own. That in itself is healing for me. (Acceptance).

My boyfriend has been there for me unconditionally (he always is) we just don't live together yet. After really opening up to him yesterday he helped me to put things into perspective. It just felt good to get it all out. We took a day for ourselves and went to a movie and to dinner, and spent a lot of time talking and alot of alone time. All in all, it was a great day.

I can't say that I am still not feeling sad over my friend, but hopefully he knows that I care and now the ball is in his court, so to speak. There is so much more to the story, and I think it may have affected me more strongly because of other feelings and unresolved issues between us. I refuse to keep calling him or trying to reach him, I have to keep myself safe.

Well thanks again, you guys are the best!

Love,
Sujin