I would not open this part of myself up to anyone who has abused me in the past and would use it to abuse me now ... Please don't undermine your own recovery process like that ...

I'm speaking from my own experience, even though it was a different situation and scenario ... I've come to regret it, and the setback I experienced to my healing and recovery process was like having my family rape, beat and brutalize me all over again ...

Therefore, I STRONGLY advise you to NOT GO THERE ... !!!

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Pfrog!