Thank-you guys. I'm so conflicted, that could have been / could be anyone in my family (son, dh or me). I'm just getting myself together (I think, I know T wont agree). I really don't want to risk T suggesting inpatient Wednesday but I do have to live here for another year.

My husband is so close on the issue because it's so close to home but he doesn't feel we should go because we didn't know him.They moved in a month ago. He's also rather angry because he feels it could have been prevented. I think he's really just scared for our son and that both of us have been in that spot less then 2 months ago. How he ended was a way that we have both thought about and now we know it could be successful. So I'm sure that scares him too. In emotional situations I'm the one who decides.

So I may be doing this alone if I go. I'm worried that being jealous shows that I'm in a worse place then I thought. I don't want to feel guilty later or go if they are going to send me spiraling down. It doesn't help that I have never been to one.


thank-you because I am. I feel it is selfish to feel that way

I would to if I was in that mood.