can anyone think back?....even just over the day the hour the minutes and realise!

"don't know just how I stand up in this world around me?"

"I must be sitting down it's just all weird"

folded shirts in neat stacks never worn but neat racks... cans of soups in dumb groups unworn winter scarves held in neverworn loops... straight lines kitchen sink shines... old sponge domestic grunge, overcooked hunger now! don't see meat without the cow... toothbrush in the shower no towel no power, letterbox evil word wagon backdoor death dragon... naked legs underspent clothes pegs...pillows with names spoken playing the sleepy games and nights broken... pass a sneeze hold my breath please! dream a cloud think overloud can't look up down inbetween...arrived somewhere don't care never seen....it's just a dude gotta be rude carpet dot my brain might rot, save coins fanatical funny but dollar bills just aint no money...sleep all week biological freak, drive always backstreets uncanny car lonely two seats... peek through blinds expecting the unkinds distrusting all my minds....ideas of God, habits and hobbies I nod, pleased quickly... forgotten and teased!...line up the shoes what socks are what? nasty room givin' me the blues expectin' there's a place for all I got....wake up in a devil bird beak two hours more I sneak... feather torn each day I am re-born....where's my cup thought I washed it up?

stuffed if I know what that meant?

the personal bipolar environment is a unique high maintenance world

DM